Happy Mother's Day to My Mom
In memory of my mom who died on May 2, 2021.
At the very end of my mom's life, my dad and I slept in her room with her. One night I slept at the top of her bed so I could hold her hand and be close to her. The night before that, I sat up watching her and wrote this.
My Mom
My biggest cheerleader
Always supporting me
Loving me
"You can do anything," you said
Never doubting anything I wanted to do
Believing in me more than I did myself
You listened and supported
Guided and sacrificed
A genuinely self-less mom
Always there
Giving and loving
I'll be forever grateful
Of course it's more complicated
These past 12 months have been
A time of a great unfurling
Peeling away the the layers
The layers that separated us
My judgments and superiority
The distance of generational differences
The ways I tried to be "not you"
It took until 50 to individuate
so I could see you with clear eyes
Beyond my projections
Opening my heart
Pushing the edges of my fear
Fear of getting old
Fear of dementia
Fear of losing you
Yes, you're slipping away
But now I'm in touch
With the true You
The shining light you are
Your life was simple
Your light was bright
Your heart was overflowing with love
You touched so many people
I see you now
I see you beyond "mom"
I see you beyond fear
I see you - I see love
I thank you for being a gift
To me, the world, my kids, Dad
You have touched the world
Made a mark in the name of love
My heart aches to say goodbye
But I am complete
I have no regrets
I can set you free
Until we meet again, my sweet mom
Shine your bright light down upon us
I can only hope to shine as bright as you
I can only hope to make you smile
You were strong and wise
You were generous and kind
Thanks for being a wonderful mom
Goodbye Mom. I love you.
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2 comments
Beautiful!
Thank you!
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